I'm a Horrible Person.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009 5:16 PM
This shit sucks. I'm not okay. I'm saying all the wrong things, I'm doing everything wrong, I just feel so goddamn retarded. I'm a complete failure and I can't straighten things out. I don't know why I can't stop trying to be perfect. I hate it with all I can. I'm a horrible friend. I'm sick of crying everyday and I just can't take this stupid shit. I just want this week and next week to end. I'm sick of trying to be pretty and trying to impress some guy. I just want to go to sleep until things feel right. Back to my secure self. Back to the place where I always smiled. I'm sick of people treating me special cause I said my dad abandoned me. I was okay before you felt sorry for me and made me feel like I'm uncapable of achieving things and more lonely than I have ever felt. I'm sick of being attacked by my family. Its always a constant battle to in a car ride and it sucks. I just want to be a kid. I wish I could just let myself be a kid for once. I wish my family would let me be a kid. I wish people will let me be a kid.