And his name is Thomas. Gosh I spent like ten minutes talking to Lauren about how I don't understand why so many people love and care about me so much that they're willing to give me their legs and money and wrists. I became friends with so many people and they get attached to me just like everyone other one of my friends...But why? I don't see it. I have my few friends that I love so much and they're always my first priority before any other people I'm friends with. I understand that they love me but what about the other people? The people I just met in a month and yet they're so attached. I don't hate it, I just don't understand how I get so many people at once? Its like I'm that gay guy that everyone wants to be friends with. ahaha

And if I even have this amazing power of rallying people up to love me, why can't I get Thomas? Geez. Yet at times I wish I weren't loved by many but belonged somewhere. Be comfortable and loud and crazy, myself. Blah blah blah.