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Bored as hell. Labor day couldn't get any longer. I don't get the point of a holiday unless it involves fireworks, gifts, and parties. They got Labor day sale, but that's pretty much all they have..well Labor day weekends. Oh wells, I guess I'll just spend the rest of my days going on myspace and not having a social life with real actual people. As I wait anxiously for the Hills to be on in the next three or four hours...nevermind I have nothing smart to say. Ya know, I used to have another blogger, but I can't seem to find it. I wonder now, goddamnit I'm anxious now.

Oh my goodness, this feels like me watching Hans Klok featuring Pamela Anderson. I feel bad for him, his show is going down the drain. I mean c'mon if Johnathan or what not guy could make a good show all about his hair, so can Hans Klok! Plus he has Pamela Anderson and everybody knows that's what they have come to see. ;D

I've been thinking about the future and about how I haven't had my "first kiss". It's almost like that Drew Barrymore where the character's like what 33 years old?? and hasn't had her first kiss. Maybe I'll be her..It's just that I feel like I might not be that girl who gets married and have kids. I know I'm young and I have time, but it feels like it's been too long. Maybe it's those vampire love saga books I've been reading. I don't know, it just feels like I have no role in life other than being the smart academically, but not smart sensually..ew that sounds weird yet it speaks the truth. I am Gina the best friend. It seems nice, but it's hell. I need an existing love life too! Pssh, think I'm not screaming inside for someone to actually notice the facts that I'm an affection-starved girl. I know for a fact not one of my friends will see this and for sure they won't ever. This is the actual truth of a Straight "A" Student.

Even though school has started I still cannot hang with any human for that matter. Not in the summer, not during school, not ever. I crave for some hanging time with friends with endless pictures of our happiness of the long hours that seem to be short minutes. I want freedom from this overly protected household. I want to be able to know that next Saturday I can go hang out at whoever's house. I want to go to the movies on Friday with a group of friends on Sunday. But no matter how hard I try, I always end up on the weekend or weekdays at home, on the computer, doing this.